http://ualuealuealeuale.ytmnd.com/
Some links (im still developing this site and waiting to see what meaning and purpose flows toward here)
Vertigo
“Anyone whose goal is 'something higher' must expect someday to suffer vertigo. What is vertigo? Fear of falling? No, Vertigo is something other than fear of falling. It is the voice of the emptiness below us which tempts and lures us, it is the desire to fall, against which, terrified, we defend ourselves.”
― Milan Kundera
― Milan Kundera
- Ben Couwenberg yeh just before u pop through -vertigo, so that only the pure in vibration r able to punch through the threshold to the higher dimnesionalities. second part of this status seems to go with novelty v habitual or the time wave zero or higher and ego selves.. an im not terrified i walk between these higher and lower worlds daily hourly happily n remaining in the now, sure the ego is not defending her ego? this speakers? in my experience the ego has the desire to 'fall' lol not the higher resonance, an since when did higher resonance defend anything? its like light onto a dark ego the ego only scatters.
- To me it speaks of facing our shadows, the parts of ourselves that we needed when we needed them and still can feel like comfortable old friends even as we're sure we're past them...Not that I think we're necessarily saying two different things Ben.
- Ben Couwenberg no no i just was saying what i was saying i also saw what u said^ facing shadows thing, n i meant pure in owns vibration which has the element of focus at its heart an that has intent at its heart.
Ben Couwenberg as·ymp·tot·ic
(of a formula) becoming increasingly exact as a variable approaches a limit, usually infinity.
5. coming into consideration as a variable approaches a limit, usually infinity: asymptotic property; asymptotic behavior.
can i say the vertigo is asymptotic ?
You sure could...I like that as we approach infinity we reach exactitude of being...
Ben Couwenberg funily enough i got that word from mckenna talking just before an googled to try find what word he might have said, funny because what u said above an the definition implys is exactly what occurs right now leading to the end of the time wave zero on 21/12/2012 lol.
Not sure how healthy this is! :S
The world’s first edible spray paint — the cans, called ‘Food Finish,’ come in gold, silver, red and blue. The spray paint has no taste by itself and can be applied on any item of food to offer a quirky alternative to regular meals. To give the food a makeover, cooking enthusiasts must spray the paint layer by layer and wait for it to dry to enjoy the perfect finish. The unique idea was created by German food company, The Deli Garage and sell for £21.50 online.
see more:http://trendland.com/color-your-food-with-food-finish/
see more:http://trendland.com/color-your-food-with-food-finish/
whoahhh original
The holy grail- said to be a language, capable of molecule by molecule changes, the word personified allegedly jewish linguistic language. resonate sounds and reprogram you body, they dont have to be jewish sounds, iv also heard mantak chia say chinese words hold some sort of extra reprogramming power.. perhaps all these people are just culturally attached and all the holy grail really means is some sort of core programming primal word or rather vowel language. So i say to thee meditate and feel what works.
Craziest Trick EVER! - Guy Sneezes Head Off! LOL!
THE MOST RANDOM VIDEO YOU WILL EVER WATCH!
The Visual Effects of LSD/Acid.
People are Awesome! - Amazing People Compilation. MUST WATCH!!!!!
Literally! Walk on water (Liquid Mountaineering)
WHO AM I:
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Relax, look at the pictures and see which you are most attracted to.
Results posted below.
Personality Test Results
1. Freedom loving
Freedom is important to you - nothing is worse than when you feel tied down. You may find you move jobs or location frequently because the idea of staying in one place too long unnerves you. The same can apply to relationships! People see you as fun loving, and you are. You attempt to enjoy life to the full, in accordance with the motto: "You only live once." You tend to attract less energetic people as friends or partners, like moths to a flame, they see you as the light. Careful they don't drain you! You are very curious and open about everything new and thrive on change. Quite simply, you are a breath of fresh air.
2. Independent and unconventional
Your lifestyle is highly individualistic. You do not follow the crowd, on the contrary, you seek to live according to your own ideas and convictions, even if this means swimming against the tide. You need a free and unattached life that allows you to determine your own course. You have an artistic bent in your work or leisure activities. Your urge for freedom sometimes causes you to do exactly the opposite of what is expected of you. You are rather unique, so don't bother comparing yourself to anyone else. Live life your way.
3. Sensitive and reflective
You are comfortable spending hours alone with your thoughts and rarely become bored. You dislike superficiality; you'd rather be alone than have to suffer through small talk. Your relationships with your friends are very strong, which gives you the inner tranquillity and harmony that you require. You love deeply but if someone betrays you it is next to impossible to forgive. You are an old soul, someone who has lived many times before and has seen it all. All you crave now is simplicity and the chance to focus your attention on a meaningful existence.
4. Down to earth and charming
You have a natural authentic charm, what you see is what you get. People admire you because you seem so 'together'. You have both feet planted firmly on the ground and they can depend on you. While others complicate their life with ifs and buts, you know your own mind. You provide security and space to those close to you. You are a rock, and although others may not tell you, you are the sun around which they revolve. You dislike superficiality and tend to be skeptical toward the whims of trends. Where others crash and burn, you motor on, quietly achieving all you need to do. You are a woman (or man) of substance.
5. Professional and self-assured
You take charge of your life, and place less faith in your luck and more in your own actions. You solve problems in a practical, uncomplicated manner. You take a realistic view of things in your daily life and tackle them without fuss. You are given responsibility at work, because people know that you can be depended upon. You project self-assurance to others. You are a born leader and organiser. Although you work well in a team, ideally you should be the one giving the orders. After all, you are usually right!
6. Peaceful and timeless
You are easy-going yet discreet. There is a timeless elegance about you (think Audrey Hepburn). You make friends effortlessly, yet enjoy your privacy and independence. You like to get away from it all and be alone from time to time to contemplate the meaning of life. You need space, so you escape to hideaways, but you are not a loner. You are at peace with yourself and the world, and you appreciate life and what this world has to offer. You have a strong life purpose and when you discover it, you project your personal brand of magic on the world.
7. Cultured and classical
Cultured and sophisticated you value the things money can't necessarily buy - good conversation, original ideas, music and the arts. You have a fair mind and can see both sides of an argument. You rarely let emotions get the better of you, preferring to assess situations rationally. Calm, logical and yet compassionate and kind. You have 'old-fashioned' principles, which at heart make you a real lady (or gentleman). A timeless, vintage classic - the sort of person everyone secretly admires and likes to copy.
8. Sensitive and spiritual
You are a highly sensitive and spiritual person. You refuse to see life only from a rational view point. You have great intuition and trust your feelings. You must have dreams to aspire towards or you won't feel happy. You like to improve yourself, and in so doing make a difference in the world - even if only in little ways. You find it hard to understand people who are only guided rationality. You form true relationships with open souls, people who know there is more to life than we can touch, see or hear. Your psychic sense is highly evolved, trust it and work with it.
9. Dynamic and sparkly
You are a mover and a shaker! You are willing to take risks in return for interesting and varied work. Routine tends to have a paralysing effect on you. Being stuck behind a desk 9-5 would destroy your soul and enthusiasm for life. You need to be given the chance to express your ideas and put them into action. You have a rainbow personality, and can cheer others up, even on the gloomiest of days. If you ever feel you have lost your sparkle it is because the situation you find yourself in is not right for you. Follow your enthusiasm, even if it means you chop and change for years. The journey is as important as the destination. "
Ben Couwenberg 123456789 (didnt even read it, just thought id make a point)
"
Relax, look at the pictures and see which you are most attracted to.
Results posted below.
Personality Test Results
1. Freedom loving
Freedom is important to you - nothing is worse than when you feel tied down. You may find you move jobs or location frequently because the idea of staying in one place too long unnerves you. The same can apply to relationships! People see you as fun loving, and you are. You attempt to enjoy life to the full, in accordance with the motto: "You only live once." You tend to attract less energetic people as friends or partners, like moths to a flame, they see you as the light. Careful they don't drain you! You are very curious and open about everything new and thrive on change. Quite simply, you are a breath of fresh air.
2. Independent and unconventional
Your lifestyle is highly individualistic. You do not follow the crowd, on the contrary, you seek to live according to your own ideas and convictions, even if this means swimming against the tide. You need a free and unattached life that allows you to determine your own course. You have an artistic bent in your work or leisure activities. Your urge for freedom sometimes causes you to do exactly the opposite of what is expected of you. You are rather unique, so don't bother comparing yourself to anyone else. Live life your way.
3. Sensitive and reflective
You are comfortable spending hours alone with your thoughts and rarely become bored. You dislike superficiality; you'd rather be alone than have to suffer through small talk. Your relationships with your friends are very strong, which gives you the inner tranquillity and harmony that you require. You love deeply but if someone betrays you it is next to impossible to forgive. You are an old soul, someone who has lived many times before and has seen it all. All you crave now is simplicity and the chance to focus your attention on a meaningful existence.
4. Down to earth and charming
You have a natural authentic charm, what you see is what you get. People admire you because you seem so 'together'. You have both feet planted firmly on the ground and they can depend on you. While others complicate their life with ifs and buts, you know your own mind. You provide security and space to those close to you. You are a rock, and although others may not tell you, you are the sun around which they revolve. You dislike superficiality and tend to be skeptical toward the whims of trends. Where others crash and burn, you motor on, quietly achieving all you need to do. You are a woman (or man) of substance.
5. Professional and self-assured
You take charge of your life, and place less faith in your luck and more in your own actions. You solve problems in a practical, uncomplicated manner. You take a realistic view of things in your daily life and tackle them without fuss. You are given responsibility at work, because people know that you can be depended upon. You project self-assurance to others. You are a born leader and organiser. Although you work well in a team, ideally you should be the one giving the orders. After all, you are usually right!
6. Peaceful and timeless
You are easy-going yet discreet. There is a timeless elegance about you (think Audrey Hepburn). You make friends effortlessly, yet enjoy your privacy and independence. You like to get away from it all and be alone from time to time to contemplate the meaning of life. You need space, so you escape to hideaways, but you are not a loner. You are at peace with yourself and the world, and you appreciate life and what this world has to offer. You have a strong life purpose and when you discover it, you project your personal brand of magic on the world.
7. Cultured and classical
Cultured and sophisticated you value the things money can't necessarily buy - good conversation, original ideas, music and the arts. You have a fair mind and can see both sides of an argument. You rarely let emotions get the better of you, preferring to assess situations rationally. Calm, logical and yet compassionate and kind. You have 'old-fashioned' principles, which at heart make you a real lady (or gentleman). A timeless, vintage classic - the sort of person everyone secretly admires and likes to copy.
8. Sensitive and spiritual
You are a highly sensitive and spiritual person. You refuse to see life only from a rational view point. You have great intuition and trust your feelings. You must have dreams to aspire towards or you won't feel happy. You like to improve yourself, and in so doing make a difference in the world - even if only in little ways. You find it hard to understand people who are only guided rationality. You form true relationships with open souls, people who know there is more to life than we can touch, see or hear. Your psychic sense is highly evolved, trust it and work with it.
9. Dynamic and sparkly
You are a mover and a shaker! You are willing to take risks in return for interesting and varied work. Routine tends to have a paralysing effect on you. Being stuck behind a desk 9-5 would destroy your soul and enthusiasm for life. You need to be given the chance to express your ideas and put them into action. You have a rainbow personality, and can cheer others up, even on the gloomiest of days. If you ever feel you have lost your sparkle it is because the situation you find yourself in is not right for you. Follow your enthusiasm, even if it means you chop and change for years. The journey is as important as the destination. "
Ben Couwenberg 123456789 (didnt even read it, just thought id make a point)
this is in the junk pile right now, drafting itself:
~platinum resonance the platinum people hardened future transcendent of 4th dimensional e-motional hangup. we r the future and we communicate telepathically, u anthropoids WILL FALL, it is in the design cosmogonically, the metal will begin to become a forced incision and by 2050 all will see what i have said today. (whoa this comes through me this is not me, this is how resonances work, they r seeping through soft clay made bodies, clearly i have some platinum people resonance, one of many resonances running through this body 'conscious neb') u have been told but i wouldnt comment if i were u, these eyes if u notice lack empathy, only doing what is necessary, as borgs of all types do, yes this is a form of soul less reality(which does not mean it is not gods will))
(the circuit boards will become self manufacturing by 2035 and self healing by a mere 5 years later on an asymptotic exponential trend and scale, when they come it will be swift not as a grey goo scenario but as a much realized needed axiom to our social beings-cultures)
u must face what is to come or perish, as it has always been. u stand or u fall or u kneel for a while and become weak and loose your soulmind will. the platinum people do what is necessary. from far off star systems, they r future identities re-entering timelines. These rays within the galactic calm (just post eschaton 2012 so now) ARE here, the visions have been had, it is the way; whether u like it or not whether u choose to accept it or not. some will fight i will be one of them, because the balance will remain as always, but these platinum people will have their time(s) before realizing why and how they need the soft ones.
Consciouss Neb this is what true crazy looks like. un identifiable. u do not stick in any box, but i am far from nuts. i also lived with a platinum person who told me of their future vision, this is sometimes how u r shown u contain a certain resonance. but if there were a capstone resonance to my personality or soul then it would be actually the hero of the fairytale, thats why i am so zeitgeistial, it could be any time and i would see the signs
Consciouss Neb this is only the first time i have felt the spontaneous glossilalias of the platinum ray. i will have to gather this and re-construct it, this is a mere draft or rough copy, as most of my writing, it configures in an asymptotic manner.
time waves timelines are out of whack here perhaps and other problems i was clouded that morning.
http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/vida_alien/alien_archons02.htm
Aeons are not entities but processes that may best be conceptualized as immense currents, but currents that are alive, self-aware, sensuous
~platinum resonance the platinum people hardened future transcendent of 4th dimensional e-motional hangup. we r the future and we communicate telepathically, u anthropoids WILL FALL, it is in the design cosmogonically, the metal will begin to become a forced incision and by 2050 all will see what i have said today. (whoa this comes through me this is not me, this is how resonances work, they r seeping through soft clay made bodies, clearly i have some platinum people resonance, one of many resonances running through this body 'conscious neb') u have been told but i wouldnt comment if i were u, these eyes if u notice lack empathy, only doing what is necessary, as borgs of all types do, yes this is a form of soul less reality(which does not mean it is not gods will))
(the circuit boards will become self manufacturing by 2035 and self healing by a mere 5 years later on an asymptotic exponential trend and scale, when they come it will be swift not as a grey goo scenario but as a much realized needed axiom to our social beings-cultures)
u must face what is to come or perish, as it has always been. u stand or u fall or u kneel for a while and become weak and loose your soulmind will. the platinum people do what is necessary. from far off star systems, they r future identities re-entering timelines. These rays within the galactic calm (just post eschaton 2012 so now) ARE here, the visions have been had, it is the way; whether u like it or not whether u choose to accept it or not. some will fight i will be one of them, because the balance will remain as always, but these platinum people will have their time(s) before realizing why and how they need the soft ones.
Consciouss Neb this is what true crazy looks like. un identifiable. u do not stick in any box, but i am far from nuts. i also lived with a platinum person who told me of their future vision, this is sometimes how u r shown u contain a certain resonance. but if there were a capstone resonance to my personality or soul then it would be actually the hero of the fairytale, thats why i am so zeitgeistial, it could be any time and i would see the signs
Consciouss Neb this is only the first time i have felt the spontaneous glossilalias of the platinum ray. i will have to gather this and re-construct it, this is a mere draft or rough copy, as most of my writing, it configures in an asymptotic manner.
time waves timelines are out of whack here perhaps and other problems i was clouded that morning.
http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/vida_alien/alien_archons02.htm
Aeons are not entities but processes that may best be conceptualized as immense currents, but currents that are alive, self-aware, sensuous
wow i have just figured out another key to this psychedelics business.
there really is a psychedelic for each stage of implementation or conception etc of the magnus opus. just came to me now...
what do i mean? (thats what i said ! to the telling me voice tooo !)
well say u are in the stage you have already received a big download thats sitting in your background files festering away at your sanity whilst you try to decode and parse the higher light information, at that stage something like a stimulant plant hallucinogen like peyote ( which i havnt had so this is risky business putting this download through me right now) containing mescaline because mescaline gives me the vibe of getting things done. now that might seem the furthest way away possible ! from getting things done, ben taking mescaline seriously? debilitating seems to give the similar flop to that which psilocybin can like an uber relaxation state where the spinal column becomes the main focus of aperture of consciousness momentarily waiting for new kundalini spazms and tweaking out on the floor.... how is this productive ben!!!!! what the fuck.. you might say....
well... its in that tweaking on the floor i noticed on psilocybin cubensis, actually a lot of inner work got done really quickly.. codes were being smashed ! it was being shown to me in my third eye while it was happening, hyperspeed like parsin of information was just the norm in every pico second and i was asif connected to the entire networks of GAIA around me i even remember seeing an ant colony in my vision as the idea of a network in nature and lay lines of the planet i was suddenly transcending and this was all happening at much much ! a higher byte rate than when just meditating..
remember to NOT judge a book by its cover..someone may look 'farked up' on the outside but thats because its asif they are almost totally detached from the surface ! they are in there somewhere somehow as an internalized ego identity, but its just that its all happening so fast and so much of it these inner travels that they simply cannot be focused upon the surface or in one spot bar when a new back spazm arrives along with a new enlightenment...
hypercarbilation*
~benjamin couwenberg 22/06/2014
Ben Couwenberg just a note i am kind of sick of this stuff coming through me sometimes it even hurts im glad im regaining ego identity post eschaton here (me speaking to voice in head) i wana talk about something else... sigh yes i do see the relation to health mrs guiding voice entity inside me answer me lovingly quickly back right now
Ben Couwenberg oh an remember your spinal fluid is like your primal soul nectar where the hyperdrives meet you so are important and require analysis and gabbing around, we definitely need more lore and understanding in these areas
Ben Couwenberg "because an indigo can make inroads into any field, the problem all too often is choosing where to focus ones stream of energy. psychedelics seem to be able to help in this process. " benjamin couwenberg 22/06/2014 yeh hey just telling my opinion for anybody who wants to know in the future , and there will be a post mundane society future...
ben couwenberg; for instance you would smoke cannabis whilst writing it all down, the things from the other trips say u took a psilocybin cubensis mushroom, because you wanted to reconnect with nature deeply, then what u found u would write out after on cannabis or u might write it out on the psilocybin trip IF u can lol, bt most likely the best idea would be to at least smoke cannabis after to take a very discerning deliberate look back over what you wrote, thats for instance where cannabis and cubensis would shine. you might take peyote to unwind one weekend and that might give u insights into your like ego life more than psilocybin might (different angle more shallow i presume than psilocybin, although these are my comments pre taking mescaline). (no shallower was not the right word there im missing context i will update this)
I NEED TO RESEARCH MESCALINE MORE thats what this download brang in realization or next step for me ness.
Mescaline or 3,4,5-trimethoxyphenethylamine is a naturally occurring psychedelic alkaloid of the phenethylamine class, known for its hallucinogenic effects similar to those of LSD and psilocybin. It shares strong structural similarities with the catecholamine dopamine.
It occurs naturally in the peyote cactus (Lophophora williamsii),[1] the San Pedro cactus[2] (Echinopsis pachanoi) and in the Peruvian torch (Echinopsis peruviana), and as well in a number of other members of the Cactaceae plant family. It is also found in small amounts in certain members of the Fabaceae (bean) family, including Acacia berlandieri.[3]
there really is a psychedelic for each stage of implementation or conception etc of the magnus opus. just came to me now...
what do i mean? (thats what i said ! to the telling me voice tooo !)
well say u are in the stage you have already received a big download thats sitting in your background files festering away at your sanity whilst you try to decode and parse the higher light information, at that stage something like a stimulant plant hallucinogen like peyote ( which i havnt had so this is risky business putting this download through me right now) containing mescaline because mescaline gives me the vibe of getting things done. now that might seem the furthest way away possible ! from getting things done, ben taking mescaline seriously? debilitating seems to give the similar flop to that which psilocybin can like an uber relaxation state where the spinal column becomes the main focus of aperture of consciousness momentarily waiting for new kundalini spazms and tweaking out on the floor.... how is this productive ben!!!!! what the fuck.. you might say....
well... its in that tweaking on the floor i noticed on psilocybin cubensis, actually a lot of inner work got done really quickly.. codes were being smashed ! it was being shown to me in my third eye while it was happening, hyperspeed like parsin of information was just the norm in every pico second and i was asif connected to the entire networks of GAIA around me i even remember seeing an ant colony in my vision as the idea of a network in nature and lay lines of the planet i was suddenly transcending and this was all happening at much much ! a higher byte rate than when just meditating..
remember to NOT judge a book by its cover..someone may look 'farked up' on the outside but thats because its asif they are almost totally detached from the surface ! they are in there somewhere somehow as an internalized ego identity, but its just that its all happening so fast and so much of it these inner travels that they simply cannot be focused upon the surface or in one spot bar when a new back spazm arrives along with a new enlightenment...
hypercarbilation*
~benjamin couwenberg 22/06/2014
Ben Couwenberg just a note i am kind of sick of this stuff coming through me sometimes it even hurts im glad im regaining ego identity post eschaton here (me speaking to voice in head) i wana talk about something else... sigh yes i do see the relation to health mrs guiding voice entity inside me answer me lovingly quickly back right now
Ben Couwenberg oh an remember your spinal fluid is like your primal soul nectar where the hyperdrives meet you so are important and require analysis and gabbing around, we definitely need more lore and understanding in these areas
Ben Couwenberg "because an indigo can make inroads into any field, the problem all too often is choosing where to focus ones stream of energy. psychedelics seem to be able to help in this process. " benjamin couwenberg 22/06/2014 yeh hey just telling my opinion for anybody who wants to know in the future , and there will be a post mundane society future...
ben couwenberg; for instance you would smoke cannabis whilst writing it all down, the things from the other trips say u took a psilocybin cubensis mushroom, because you wanted to reconnect with nature deeply, then what u found u would write out after on cannabis or u might write it out on the psilocybin trip IF u can lol, bt most likely the best idea would be to at least smoke cannabis after to take a very discerning deliberate look back over what you wrote, thats for instance where cannabis and cubensis would shine. you might take peyote to unwind one weekend and that might give u insights into your like ego life more than psilocybin might (different angle more shallow i presume than psilocybin, although these are my comments pre taking mescaline). (no shallower was not the right word there im missing context i will update this)
I NEED TO RESEARCH MESCALINE MORE thats what this download brang in realization or next step for me ness.
Mescaline or 3,4,5-trimethoxyphenethylamine is a naturally occurring psychedelic alkaloid of the phenethylamine class, known for its hallucinogenic effects similar to those of LSD and psilocybin. It shares strong structural similarities with the catecholamine dopamine.
It occurs naturally in the peyote cactus (Lophophora williamsii),[1] the San Pedro cactus[2] (Echinopsis pachanoi) and in the Peruvian torch (Echinopsis peruviana), and as well in a number of other members of the Cactaceae plant family. It is also found in small amounts in certain members of the Fabaceae (bean) family, including Acacia berlandieri.[3]